The first anniversary of my launching Conscious Creating Life Coaching is fast approaching and I’ve been reflecting on the journey that lead me to this point, and all the myriad things it took to fuel that trip.
On the surface you could say I launched this life coaching website, newsletter, and practice because I graduated from Alan Cohen’s Holistic Life Coaching Certification Program, but that doesn’t touch all the steps that brought me to enrolling in that course.
Some of you may know that my spiritual journey, or should I say my conscious spiritual journey, began when I left my marriage of 27 years. Taking that step was the boldest thing I’ve ever done and I nearly snapped in the process. Suddenly life was different than anything I had experienced before or ever thought I would experience, and it was scary. Like crap your pants kind of scary.
It was a nearly vertical learning curve to sort out how to be alone for the first time in my life; to sort out all forms of insurance, car care, bill organization, and don’t even think about taxes! (I circled that first tax packet like it was a coiled snake for days before I actually touched it). To figure out what to do with myself in my free time felt odd. There was definitely a transformation going on, but at the time it just felt scary, lonely, intermittently exciting, and did I mention scary?
Yet at the same time, my soul was reaching for more, to go deeper; to take this new chapter in my life and go beyond what I’d known before and how I’d shown up in my own life. Reflecting on it now, I felt like I was being pulled or drawn into something new, something deeper – and that was when things began to shift in a big way. My dark night of the soul was transmuting into a new way of being, of awakening. I questioned everything I’d been taught about religion, spirituality, personal growth and more. I devoured book after book after book on enlightenment, spirituality and all things metaphysical, and a whole new way of experiencing this precious gift of Life began to open tiny bit by tiny bit in my heart. One morning, early in the separation, I was getting ready for work and was in a very dark space emotionally when, while wiping the breakfast table, the book I was reading, A New Earth, jumped open – I mean jumped open to the page that had only one sentence underlined:
Space is being created in your life for something new to emerge.
That was quite literally a God-send for me. The journey since then has been even more rewarding because I have been awake for it, consciously walking the path. But please, not even for 1 split second, think that I fancy that I’ve “arrived;” that I’ve transformed and now we’re going shopping!! No, if there’s one thing I’ve learned is that there is no arriving, ever. It’s all a continual becoming, and that’s good. It keeps Life fresh, new and evolving.
Why do I share this with you? I learned firsthand that the toughest of times can yield the greatest of blessings. It is oh so human and natural to resist when we go through troubling circumstances. It’s the clenched fist feeling of, “This shouldn’t be happening!” Yet, we each have our unique curriculum to learn on this Earth and we can’t ‘positive think’ our way around it. Life is to be experienced, and that includes the challenging times that bring us to our knees. Know that if you are going through a difficult stretch, there are blessings and lessons there for you, and the more you can be open to them, to gently accept what is, and gradually trade that clenched fist for an upturned palm, your life will be richer and more rewarding for it. To me, it’s the best part of the journey.
